Just a girl.

There are so many things to be said. Questions to ask.

To him, especially. 

My head is cluttered with questions and random thoughts. Why was it not enough? Why was I not enough? 

My face is damp from the tears that I can't fight back anymore. My room is destroyed from the mess I have become. 

The sun is shining but I feel cold and alone. 

I wouldn't take me seriously. I'm just a girl, trying to find my place in the world. 

Trying to find love.

"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

-Sex & the City

Point B.

What truly makes someone grow as a person? Is it the experiences they go through, or is it growing up? For me it was both. When I was 18, you could pin me as the most naive girl on the block (or acre, considering where I lived). But seven years later, I have learned my lesson with a lot of things, and my disease has especially taught me to be more appreciative. For so long I took so much for granted, whether it was my mom or the place that I was living. After going through what I did and working so hard to get to point B, I have too much to be thankful for to take it for granted. When I look back on that time period of when my life was not in the best shape, all that really matters is that I can look to where I am now and know that I grew from that. I am not the same person that screams at her mother for no reason. I don’t need a ride to work anymore, because I can walk there. And even though at one point it was hard for me to accept, I know who I am because of the person that I was.

"You can't get to point B without a point A."
-Unknown